I’ve been doing amazingly well not counting calories. Seriously, it’s been a lot easier than I thought it would be. I thought I was going to have a constant struggle, adding up each component of every meal like it’s second nature. Not so. I admit at times I’ll loosely calculate an item or two…like pretzel crisps or a piece of fruit or an energy bar. But I’m not being obsessive about it. Honestly, I feel much more liberated than I have in…well, in four months.
HOWEVER. I don’t think I’m doing enough to gain weight. I’m not really gaining. I might weigh around 103-104 at the moment. I haven’t actually weighed in a few days so I’m not entirely sure. But I know I haven’t gained anything significant. Yesterday, out of mere curiosity, I added up my calories. And I saw why I’m, for the most part, at a standstill. I’m still consuming less than 1500 calories. I guess the simple act of stopping the calorie-counting is not enough…of course it’s not enough. If I stop counting but continue eating about the same as I did before, obviously the amount of calories going in is not going to vary that much. I have to make little changes, little additions, to get the count up. I have to not be afraid to add a spoonful of nut butter to my morning oats, a sprinkle of almonds on my yogurt, to eat a Luna bar before I work out, to get in an afternoon snack [and an evening snack]. Seriously, I’m horrible with snacks. I feel like I can only allow myself one snack a day, after supper, which I usually count as my dessert and usually consists of a piece of fruit with some peanut butter, or some dry cereal, and coffee. I never eating morning snacks because I think, I’ll be eating lunch in a couple of hours…why add more calories when I could just wait it out? Truth be told, I don’t feel like I deserve those extra calories, like I earned them in any way [because I apparently have to "earn" my calories? What's up with that?] Then I peruse other food blogs and find that a lot of people eat morning and afternoon snacks. So obviously snacking is healthy, when you go about it in the right way. But it’s something I struggle with. I’ve always liked the idea of eating five or six mini-meals a day, but I’ve just never actually attempted it because I get too “scared.” Maybe some day I’ll actually give it a whirl.
So, all that said, I guess my point is that I just need to work to add more oomph to my eats. I’ll call it Operation Oomph to My Eats. Yeah, that’s catchy, right? Operation OME. Lord, that’s cheesy. No shame.
I’ll have to think this out and determine exactly what this means I’ll be doing. Obviously I’ll have to make some changes…but I’m going to take baby steps. If I try to take huge leaps right from the start, I’ll get overwhelmed.
Sooo…what did I eat yesterday? Glad you asked.
Breakfast: 1/3 cup 5-grain cereal, 1/3 cup soy milk, 1/6 cup water, cinnamon, 1/2 banana, blueberries. All mixed up in the same bowl. With coffee.
Lunch: Smuckers natural peanut butter + Cascadian Farms organic strawberry preserves on sprouted grain bread, an apple, and baby carrots.
Supper: Split pea soup + pretzel crisps.
Dessert: A yummy parfait! ~1 cup of vanilla Oikos, raspberries, blueberries, strawberries, sprinkle of chocolate chunks, sprinkle of almonds.
In non-food news, last night was my first shift at my new job!! I felt totally in my element there. I’m going to have no problem getting adjusted to this theater. The work is very familiar to me, which is great. Nobody told me how to do anything…I just backed up the other concessionists the whole night, swept the floor, changed the trash, scooped popcorn, and poured lots of sodas. I almost feel ready to run a drawer already. No probs. I work again today, 12-8. I had a lovely oatmeal combination for breakfast: 1/2 cup old-fashioned oats, 3/4 cup soy milk/water, 1 tbsp. dark cocoa powder, 1/2 banana, and sliced strawberries on the side. And two cups of coffee. I’m definitely feeling some split pea soup for lunch…yeah, totally obsessed. I love split pea soup!!
Gotta go now!